I’d originally told myself that I could not afford nor did I deserve an experience in Kemet, especially since I had just returned from my trip to Cameroon. So, just like that, I stopped thinking about it. That was until I started doing some really deep self-reflection, along with a coach (hey Thema, giiiirl), that I was able to recognize that I was stuck in old thought patterns, belief systems and actions. …so hell yeah, I deserved this trip and much more! Damn, fear can paralyze even the strongest among us. Honestly, I had a fear of lack, not being able to take care of myself and #TheSydSyd. Not having enough money to do this or that. So, I became content and comfortable doing the same thing, the same way…safe in my pattern. Sound familiar?
Once I realized that these old patterns and beliefs didn’t serve me but were holding me back from becoming my highest and best self; I committed to letting go of fear and began taking the action to create the life that I have only dreamed about. Right then I began attracting amazing people, experiences, opportunities, and resources to myself.
While floating down the Nile River one warm, beautiful Afrikan evening, I became still and present; I noticed how full and striking the moon looked, inhaled the unique smell of the Nubian air, listened to the water crash against the tender and the excited chatter of my Faaamiiilllleee (hey y’all!) who were on this journey with me, felt the mist of the water splash my face and the salty taste of my tears Nile River water on my lips.
Wow! I’d done it, I was actually here! In Kemet, my second trip home (Afrika) in less than a year! Sailing down the Nile, peaceful, hopeful, prayerful, protected, GRATEFUL! I was/am grateful to my mom for her support, grateful to #TheSydSyd for letting me do me, grateful to myself for being brave enough to know I need(ed) to break free from old crap. For understanding that I am a co-creator of my life and once I am given a vision, it is my job to take action to take said vision to the next level.
This journey #FromJerZtoMe hasn’t been easy but it certainly has been interesting, come back soon to read Part 2 of my amazing #Kemetamorphosis where I’ll share what I really think about the bullshit lies we’ve been told about damn near everything. Buckle up, it may get a lil bumpy.
Is there something holding you back from living your best life?
Soundscape: Kelly Price, It’s My Time